IT'S A GIRL!

Happpy news! as you can tell from todays blog title :) so today i woke up at 7:15 a.m to get ready for school. I got there around 8:20. and then parked in an angle where the sun was all over the car!! thank god for foil thingy i bought from daiso! anyway, i took a nap...and woke up at like 9:09 a.m when class starts at 9:10. so I walked to class and it took me ten minutes to walk to class. ended up being twenty minutes late when i got there early. anyway afterwards i dropped off the car and got picked up and ate lunchie at tops cafe. afterwards, i was late to my ultrasound appointment!! i missed my prenatal class today. but oh well! ultrasound was more important. it was a very extraordinary experience for me. she's a girl! I'm so excited. saw our baby more clearly this time. our radiologist did a great job helping us take some cute pictures of her because she was trying to hide! we literally saw her cover her face with her hands and move! it was so adorable. anyway, our pictures came out so cute. she's about 13 oz right now. and the size of a water bottle :) I can say I could be able to fully understand the beauty of a mother to-be. It was so dark inside the room! and the gel felt a bit weird and gooey.....not very pleasant. This is like the highlight of my week i must say :) I was so excited afterwards we went to buy her a blankie that says "I heart daddy". it was so adorable! & a baby memory book (a fill-in book to record the baby first years event). they were both pink! i think i would probably have everything set even before the baby shower-__-" hopefully not! I really want to make diaper cakes. they're so pretty! cribs are so expensive...yesterday, we were at ikea looking at cribs. the one i wanted was like 219$ without the mattress.. wahh! ill keep looking around though :) i don't have a scanner..well I do but not near me so hopefully i'll remember to upload the sonogram pictures soon because they're just too adorable<3

"this is for the girls who don't always win, who stay up all night listening to music that inspires them to do things next to the impossible. the girls who laugh, smile, cry and think all on a daily basis. the girl who like, learn, and regret. the girls who may never have it easy. the girls who learn the hard way and live to tell about this. this is for the real girls, who know what it means to let their guard down and really, really live."

It's a battlefield

Second day... Life is so dreadful right now. I don't think it can get any worst. but I know i have to be strong and pick up my feet again. my family came to pick me up from work to support me. i will never forget this night. as we walked up powell, they cried for me and i couldnt held it back any longer so I cried along. My mom held me in her arms in the car and I feel like I was a child still. Then I realize im going to be a mom soon. I may lost the person that i thought was the love of my life but I gained the presence of my family members. I almost blacked out at work today. Thank god Elaine saw and realize and told me to go upstairs and rest even though I took all my breaks already. I dont know what else to say...all I can do every night is sob myself to sleep. I Really hope this feeling would be over through the time. Until then...I would have to continue living so bitter. I guess on the bright side...I sometimes feel the baby's kicks and stretch. It's exciting. but I have no one to share this with. Anyway, I have work tomorrow. Praying this would be over....Imy.

you're dead to me

Hello, my baby. Having you is the second happiest event in my life...second to meeting your daddy.

p.s no. thats a random cute picture I took off the web ^__^V