It's a battlefield

Second day... Life is so dreadful right now. I don't think it can get any worst. but I know i have to be strong and pick up my feet again. my family came to pick me up from work to support me. i will never forget this night. as we walked up powell, they cried for me and i couldnt held it back any longer so I cried along. My mom held me in her arms in the car and I feel like I was a child still. Then I realize im going to be a mom soon. I may lost the person that i thought was the love of my life but I gained the presence of my family members. I almost blacked out at work today. Thank god Elaine saw and realize and told me to go upstairs and rest even though I took all my breaks already. I dont know what else to say...all I can do every night is sob myself to sleep. I Really hope this feeling would be over through the time. Until then...I would have to continue living so bitter. I guess on the bright side...I sometimes feel the baby's kicks and stretch. It's exciting. but I have no one to share this with. Anyway, I have work tomorrow. Praying this would be over....Imy.