Honey,

you know I love you. I feel like I loved you forever. I know we had a very rough start..I know you had it hard. I know I had a very concrete wall built between us. but deep down, I love for you for who you were. And I apologize for trying to change the great man that you truly were. And I really don't blame you for becoming who you are today because partially it was me to blame. As much as you don't believe in karma, I feel like its striking me hard this time because you are just exactly like me before. you can't even look at me or comfort me when i was crying my heart out that one night at karaoke. Right then, I knew realized..my feelings didn't matter to you as much anymore. You may deny these things that i am saying to you, but i hope you can take my thoughts and feelings in consideration this one time..for the first time..and i can't imagine what tomorrow may be if you don't. there have been some stuff i wanted to tell you. Lately, I haven't been feeling very well. Truth be told you, i'm tired and it's hard to cry myself to sleep every night. I'm very scared of our tomorrows. I'm so sorry. No matter how hard I try to fight it off, i'm left with feelings that...aches. And that everytime you kiss me, my heart shakes and becomes weak because I never really healed from the abuses and heartbreaks from our previously arguments. I'm very scared. I have no idea my insecurity of you can hurt me this bad. but I know I have to do this. if I don't im afraid i'll self destruct..and worst..you'll be there to see it happen. know that i try very hard to stay..know that youre my one and only. I miss the good old days of you with every beat of my heart. Our life together was the only happiness I really had..I wouldn't trade it for anything. Please don't let the dispute in your heart and anger ruin what we have. I beg you. I love you and I always will.