so i finally got a trim..a bit. jennifer kind of knew what i like and what not. maybe it's a sign im kind of ready for a bit of transitioning. Lately, i started to notice alot of people around me started to change. Some are growing, some are hurting, some are just..not who they used to be. And I truly miss that. Sometimes, I feel like my heart feels weak. And I thought I was a strong wise person for my age but I guess not because when my sister was hurting from her heartbreak, I really didn't know what to say. I thought I was could have handle everything through advices..but I didn't have any on my mind atm for her..maybe im not so .. miss i know it better afterall. I'm so confuse because I can't tell whether this is real or not. it's like.. you have so little control over anything anymore. And at some point, the struggle becomes too much-too tiring- and you consider letting go even if you don't want to.. and i can't even talk to anybody.. because the world would not understand me. Nobody ever does. I just want to be appreciated by you a bit more at times.